Saturday, November 30, 2013

Who are you?

Who are you? I feel like this is a question that we may ask ourselves as teachers a lot. Who are we? What are we doing? I know personally I do a lot of thinking about who I want to be and what type of teacher or daughter or fiance I want to be, but it is easy to focus on who you want to be and forget who your students want to be, better yet, who they are. I realize that over the past month I have really been doing a lot of work on trying to really dig deeper into who my students are and who their parents are. Relationships have been a topic of conversation to say the least in my classroom this year, relationships between me and my students, relationships between my students and each other, and relationships between me and my student's parents. it is amazing what a difference a meaningful, knowledgeable relationship can have.  I have really noticed a difference with my students this past month - those who I have really taken the time to know have come a long way, those who I am still struggling with I realize that there is still something major I am missing and it all comes back to - who are you? 

I realize as I look back over this past month that I focused a lot on relationships both with my students and with their parents. I was able to really build stronger relationships with both parents and students of my class. I feel as though I was really able to make some strong headway with certain parents that things were previously not going well with and I was able to celebrate making major breakthroughs with certain students that have been really struggling with throughout the year.  Being able to break though and have multiple successful days with Jamari is a huge success for me, as well as really feeling as though parent relationships and involvement is taking a positive turn rather than a negative, accusatory turn.  I also really focused on working with my students and meeting them where they needed to be met rather than trying to force something on them that I knew in the end wouldn’t work anyway.  I feel as though I was really able to see what was working and what was not working and create a plan that worked for my students.

I feel as though I have gotten much better at becoming a responsive teacher and really trying to stick with trying new things and working on things until a solution is found rather than just simply giving up. Again this comes back to me seriously asking the question - who are you? I am also really happy that these parent relationships that I have been trying to foster and grow are finally coming around. I realize that things do not happen overnight and that it takes time for things to change.

Our action research class has really allowed me to focus in on what my students needs are and think about different ways to go about bringing my students and my student’s parents to a more positive place. Our class with Dr. K last spring has also helped me because it has given me the opportunity to really see behind the scenes with my student’s parents and realize that culture plays a big part in the classroom and what my students experience outside the four walls of my classroom greatly impacts how they are within the four wall of my classroom.

I realize that things take time and you don’t really get to know someone overnight. I also have to remind myself that people see things from different perspectives and how I am interpreting something may be very different from how someone else is interpreting something. It is these differences that help make us who we are and allow us to be passionate about things in different ways.

I want to really allow freedom with my students – freedom for them to do things that matter to them, freedom to be themselves and the freedom for them to determine what kind of impression they want to leave behind when they move on next year. I want to apply that to working with my student’s parents too to some extent. I want them to be advocates for their child in what their child wants rather than advocates for themselves as parents trying to make a point about something. 

So I ask the question - who are you?